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this is probably the hardest thing I have ever had to do.. It will change your opinion of me, I may lose friends over it.. heck I might even lose family over it.. there are pictures of me as a child wearing my mom's stockings and high heels.. and all my dolls.. and it just got laughed at as a cute phase.. but it wasn't.. I wanted it more than the air in my lungs.. I personally know what it's like to look in the mirror and cry.. To have the worst self image a person can have.. To look at your Christian family and think wow I can't talk about this they won't love me anymore.. You know why I have such amazing taste in girls clothes? Because I spent my childhood wishing I could wear them.. The 8th grade Halloween Dance I went as a Hooters girl.. Ironically that night I felt like I finally took off my costume.. i was in public dressed as a girl.. and it was acceptable.. Everyone wondered why I was such a huge Dennis Rodman fan.. because the man was literally my hero.. that cover of sports illustrated with him in female clothes holding a parrot was one of the greatest leaps in T acceptance to this day... Eventually I got old enough to go to the store on my own and buy them.. I bought myself a bra and a dress..I would wait till everyone left the house, put on my moms makeup and just stare at myslef in the mirror.. I felt whole.. still cried though because I knew I couldnt tell anyone.. back then if you wore women's clothes you were gay.. problem is I've never been attracted to another male in my life.. never will.. quite the opposite.. I might actually be borderline perverted for women.. somewhere along the line my perspective of myself changed.. I finally started to love myself for who I was.. it's ok to be fashionable and dye my hair and belt out some Britney Spears into my hairbrush.. dont even get me started on the Spice girls.. at the same time as headbanging at a heavy metal show, rolling around in my car blaring rob zombie and click click boom.. playing basketball, soccer, and baseball ,and being obsessed with cars and not be gay.. or even a girl.. but unfortunately some of these kids don't fight through it and discover themselves as I did.. they kill themselves.. so I hope they see this video and my story, and it pushes them forward to give them the time to really find themselves.. nobody should know that pain.. nobody should have to look at themselves as I did.. if you need someone to talk to, Im here.. I love you all.. unconditionally.. as Jesus would (UH OH! NO HE DIDNT! ) That's right I'm a Christian.. with a fiance that Ive been in a monogamous relationship for 10 years with.. Im also an Avid Gun rights supporter, a registered Repuplican and an auto mechanic.. Im not here to start a political argument.. Im here to start a LOVE movement.. Im here to challenge your perception of the T in LGBT.. If you must hate someone, direct your hate to me because I'm strong enough in my self image to take it now.. at least it'll spare someone else who can't take it.. I honestly dont care if this video gets 2 million dislikes.. If I can change one little Boy or girl's life.. that's all that matters