DESCRIPTION:
My cover of Lupe Fiasco - Kick Push...The second instalment in a new series #TeaBreak - Every month I'm going to sit down, have a cuppa, and record something I've written over a beat that I like...recorded by me, videoed by me, edited by me. This is one of my favourite beats of all time!

LYRICS:

Its time I take you on a journey where my thoughts go
See my finger taps table like I’m sending out some morse code
Like do you get my message?
Now I’m in boss mode
Mario on a mushroom speeding over a cross road

Finally realise what I’ve got though
Feeling good and I can’t understand why I lost hope
Lost my confidence and lost that feeling in my heart again
Some times its best to cut your losses
Cross it out and start again

Yeh, and this is me just being real though
Once said I don't rate half of these rappers and I still don’t
And they probably don't rate me either
I ain’t been my self
But if they say that after this then their just lying to themselves

I learnt the lengths that people travel just to spite
And I learnt not everyone here is supposed to like
I learned a hug don’t mean it’s love
And a smile, that rarely stays long
I’ve been around long enough to recognise a fake one

Yeh, I’m not saying its all just fakes and gimmicks
Plenty of good people round me
Thats what saved me
Listen, never been good at letting people in
That won’t change i’m thinking
Maybe thats why I feel people treat me with the same resistance

I suppose that makes sense
Underground now
Trying to come up from the basement
Twenty’s go quick
So i’m trying not to waste them
Some things will only happen if you make them

Still I look around and feel like everybody’s doubting me
Or maybe i’m just paranoid and everybody’s proud of me
I shouldn’t be though
See I quit smoking at 18
When I realised that I could do without the weed, yeh

I’m just tryna’ shine with the best
Looking in the mirror like
Who you tryna’ impress
And why you even worried if they like what you said
As long as the lines said
Came from inside of your chest

But talking from the hearts now a part of me thats faded
Ever since I started getting faded
And I started feeling jaded
And I left to find myself got more lost
Came back but didn’t leave a marker where my place was

The worlds amazing
I know the worlds a maze and
Everything is changing
With every corner taken
All I ever wanted was to see my mother smiling with amazement
With a look that says I can’t believe he made it

I need to stop myself relying on other people
They write my off like i’m weak
If I might be off it one week
If my mind is not at it’s peace
And I find it’s not within reach
I try writing stop it and leave
It’s like I am stuck in this dream
Where I don’t trust no-one around
but i’m blind and walking the streets
And most the people around me are tryna’ help me to see
I need to find myself before I decide on what to beleive
I’m alive and not finished speaking
My mind is not at it’s peak yet

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