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From 'That Diamond Lust', Double Salt Records, 2012

well the rain is on in portland
can't sleep through my raging
drinking myself down again
smoking in the kitchen
cause the lights dead on the porch
you got the bulb but didn't fix it
and I'm leaving in the morning
and I don't know where I'm going
threw away my pictures
selling all my books
only want to take things with me
that are sturdy made of wood
cause I woke up to a nightmare
I was dreaming you were right there
but your still with someone somewhere
slippery and mute
electric and fifteen
and hidden from me

now I perch on chairs and barstools
can't be caught sitting down
need my knees around my heart
my feet close to my crown
you sure know the way to spin me
spun out all over these rooms
gonna leave here in the morning
I'll see you none too soon
gonna leave here in the morning
I'll see you none too soon
I want to see you

I know that words are my weakness
much as their my tool
I rely too much upon them
forget how to feel
all the force fields around you
the light round me as well
we used to play good catch with that
under the spell of play
that's what the word means anyway
oh why does it go so astray
remember that night in new orleans
long lost mermaid lounge
you asleep in the van
I thought you were some dream I had
too good to be true
couldn't find you anywhere
I couldn't find you anywhere
I couldn't find you

now I perch on chairs and barstools...

so I been thinking about possession
how it's nine tenths of the law
how that culture kills us
life love and all
I want to cut it out of my heart
with a fine tooth saw
oh but maybe it's just ambition
whatever you call
that cold burning hearted wanting
to be better than you are
seems the only way to get there
is abandon what you got
but we don't need this lesson anymore
too late in the world for that

I must have something left here
must be somewhere to stand
balanced on guitar strings
like a high wire in a headstand
everything is upside down
sudden fall from queen to clown
and foolishly I want to scold you
and I know that I have
I want to shoot some arrows through
your impenetrable mask
but when you got to crying
what did I do
did I sit down beside you
did I comfort you?

no I perch on chairs and barstools
can't be caught sitting down
knees around my heart
feet close to my crown
I want to get up in the morning
want to it down on the floor
spend the day tomorrow
trying to be pure
and really see you