DESCRIPTION:
A track off of Venia's album Victory by Surrender (2009). Copyright Open Grave Records. Venia is a female-fronted melodic metal band from Finland that incorporates elements of progressive metal, power metal, thrash metal, and even symphonic metal into their music. You can check out the band at these links: http://www.veniaband.com/ and http://www.myspace.com/veniaband/.

Lyrics:

My life I tried to control
I tried to last, tried to hold on
I strived to be good enough for God, tried to be wise and so strong
At last I crashed down
I wasn't good for anything
Wasn't able to do God's will, not even able to control my life
I wasn't the strong and wise crown of creation and earthly life
I was just a small, weak, helpless being in the midst of the great unknown
Then I heard God's voice speak out to me:
"You've tried in your own strength,
beaten your head against the wall.
Would you let me take control now?"
I asked, "What do you mean?"
"Would you surrender to me and give me the authority to control your life?"
The next day I was thinking about what God said to me last night
He said surrender to me, give me control of your life
I'm still not sure what He meant
Should I just stop living my life?
Should I stand still and wait until God tells me to walk?
My spirit's willing but my mind is weak
and I don't know how it could be done
I feel so small and alone as I am falling from my own throne
I cried out to God that night:
"Lord, I can't do it, I cannot please You."
"I didn't ask for your ability, only if you were willing.
If you don't understand, don't worry.
I'll do the work in you, just trust in me."
And so I yelled out:
"Take everything I have,
I don't have the power to please You in my own strength!"
When I surrendered God took all my burdens
Now it's not me who lives but Jesus who lives in me
He holds my hand and leads my steps
So whatever lies ahead, I can go on with a peaceful mind