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This is a new song of mine, and this recording is the first in an acoustic demo series I'll be doing while I work on my next studio release. Not all of the demos will be made into videos, so if you want to stay up to date on them, you can become a patron on Patreon, follow me on Bandcamp or Soundcloud, or subscribe to my email list via my website (http://laurenoconnell.com). Thanks!

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Written/performed/produced by Lauren O'Connell


I thought it might help if I could try limiting
All of my thoughts to meaningless little things
If I got hung up on some letter you wrote me go
Outside imagine the weather in Tokyo

But I'd get dragged down by the slightest connection
Just fly off the tracks to some recollection
Of a casual mention of a trip round the planet
A phone call that I didn't get when you landed
And how I still waited for you
When you told me not to

Still remember the things that you chose to leave out of focus
Admire, compose, and pretend not to notice
And in all of your messages, the intimate care that you
Took to show you didn't wish I was there with you

And of course I know what kind of beer we were drinking last Christmas
When I asked you those things that were none of my business
I think called you a liar but actually
I was just mad that you wouldn't yell back at me
And I never thanked you for that
So thanks
That's all you're gonna get

It's been a long time, it's almost even easy
I get days, even weeks where you vanish completely
I know I'm free now of hating or wanting you
I just hate that I still understand what I saw in you
I just hate that I still understand what I saw in you