DESCRIPTION:
i am the manager of a group home for children with autism. i wrote the words to this song while i was dealing with a pretty intense behavior. i love my job, but this song attempts to capture the difficulty and frustration that sets in when you find that there are times when there truly is not much you can do to help... if you want to hear more, or download this song, you can go to my website:

http://web.mac.com/ktsmith2/Site/Welcome.html

http://www.myspace.com/kevintsmith01

lyrics:

im sitting here calmly
you're screaming (x4)
can't go on
wish you'd wake
from your dreaming (x4)
wish i was strong

test my patience
test my control
the things i must do
eat away at my soul

your lost and im helpless
to show you the way
want to be in your world
but just for a day

im sorry for what ive done
though i never had a choice
love you like a son
wish you could have my voice

i will try not to laugh
i will try not to cry
give you a smile
and let out a sigh

too hard sometimes feels like i just can't go on
falling and falling and falling so long

*

running and spinning
laughing and grinning
couldn't be any more alive

now you're staring and slipping, falling and gripping
tearing and biting and throwing and fighting, just tripping

kills me that there's nothing i can do
i might be finished but i never got through