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If I loved you,
even when you were mean to me,
if I loved you,
even when you tried to swallow the sea,
would it mean that I swallowed my pride,
would it mean that there's nothing inside,
but some bones, and some flesh, and some water,
and yes I'm alone,
if you love me,
even though I was angry and weak,
if you loved me,
even though I was never that deep,
would it mean that you settled for less,
would it mean that you hedged your last bet,
like the gambler so buried in debt,
that he cannot go home,
and the long grey winter,
it settles right in,
when its all that you know,
sunlight feels like a sin,
its the middle of summer,
and its starting to snow,
in the middle of fallout,
tell me where do you go,
if I left you even though you were sorry you said,
if I left you even though things were never all bad,
will it mean I was leaving myself,
little pieces of me on some shelf,
abandoned like toys at Christmas when everyone goes home,
if you left me even though all your stuff is all mine,
if you left me even though you had spent your last dime,
would it mean you are leaving for good,
like you always knew somehow you would,
chasing your vision of should with a bottle of beer,
and the long grey winter well it settles right in,
when its all that you know sunlight feels like a sin,
its the middle of summer and its starting to snow,
in the middle of fallout,
tell me where do you go,
if I loved you would it make the whole world go away,
if you loved me would I come up with something inspired to say,
would it mean that the oceans are wide,
and the skies would hold us inside,
like skin, like a body, like memory, as solid as dust,
tell me who do trust