DESCRIPTION:
Despondence is a music project I started to help me cope with grief and depression. Originally, there were to be lyrics, and vocals, but after the first two songs were created, an idea formed in my head. Life is the melody. You create the melody, there doesn't need to be one. Not in this album.
this album isn't to be stopped and restarted, it is an experience kin to that of a movie, and like a movie, this album has a (loose) plot.

It Ends: The main character leaves a funeral of a friend who had killed himself. He is driving home, and the funeral bell perpetuates in his mind, reminding him of the ever present realty of his friends sudden death.

The Scrapbook: The character arrives at his home, and hurries from the parking lot to get out of the rain. After closing the door, he grabs an old scrapbook, flips through the page, and finds a picture of him and his dead friend together at a much younger age (hence the simplicity of the music). Slowly, a daze sadness begins to become present, as represented by the wind in the background.

The Wind: Finally, the sadness completely overtakes him, and he begins to feel as though he has dissipated into nothing but the wind itself.

Restriction: A new character is presented, the girlfriend of the man who committed suicide. This song follows her feelings of shock upon reading the suicide note. However, over an extended amount of time, she is calmed by a sense of duty. Her boyfriend, as a last request, asks her to deliver a note to the main character.

Everything Dies: The main character greets his friends girlfriend at the door, and lets he inside. She tells him why she's there, and tells him about the note she was left with. at the end of the song, the main character nervously unfolds the letter and reads it's contents.

Sinner's Penitence: The character is asleep, dreaming a vivid dream back to his and his friends childhood. In the dream, he begins to see signs that his friend has always been sad, and his suicide begins to feel inevitable, (as represented by the heavy drums). As he looks back further and further looking for a time when his friend isn't despondent, he finds it more and more difficult (the drums intensify), until the childish, toy like music plays over an image of his friend as a baby, the only time he can imagine his friend happy.

Just a Little While Longer: He wakes up from the dream, stumbles into the bathroom, and swallows a pill. This action immediately reminds him of how his friend killed himself and he is overwhelmed by a feeling of anguish and anxiety. Instead of going to work, he lays back down in bed, with the window open. In a daze he listens to the traffic outside an thinks jumbled thoughts, that are interrupted by the duties of his life that he can't bring himself to fulfill. He, in essence, feels dead inside.

Air is Thicker than Water: Spun off the saying "blood is thicker than water", Air is thicker than water represents the power of fresh air over sitting inside and crying (water). The character is attracted outside by birds and a wind chime, and walks on his own, realizing the beauty in life's simplicity

It Begins: The character is at the graveyard where his friend is buried. The bell rings, but sounds brighter due to his changed attitude. He remembers snapshots of moments with his friend (music from "the scrapbook" representing this) as he reaches the grave. At the grave, he forgives his friend, and forgives himself. He walks away, back to his car, and notices a preparation for another funeral.
the album cycles into "it ends", as the cycle of life, grief, and death perpetuate.

this album is about finding the melody of life.
about finding time to stop spinning endlessly in the cycle and enjoy life while you have it.

Enjoy the music around you,
because life is the melody.