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Everyday I wake up to a feeling in my spleen. Sharp stabbing pains create my uncertainty. I can't think about tomorrow. What will today bring for me? Will I fail or will I succeed? Every night I stay up cuz I find it hard to sleep when every task I undertake is like the food I eat: it will upset my stomach, so I'll shit it out eventually. Some call it life. I take it seriously but I don't claim that everyday holds either sunshine or heavy rain. I refrain from saying anything about today cuz it can change. I can change. Every week I wonder if it's you or if it's me. I don't learn cuz the hard way is the only way I see. I'm just so fucking stubborn. Why do I live this life blindly? I can only blame myself cuz, honestly, I dig myself in ditches. All these holes are deep enough that I live in constant darkness. I do not see the sun. I try and climb to the top to escape but I am stuck. Who will come and pick me up? I'll beg for your forgiveness please just give me one more chance. I'll fix all that I've broken. I will meet all your demands. I'll pay off all my debts. I will become a new person if you'd just reach out your hand and pull my from this predicament. Save me from myself again.