DESCRIPTION:
Performed by Low Frequency Trio
Antonio Rosales, bass clarinet. Juan José García, double bass.
José Luis Hurtado, piano / artistic director

Arturo Morfín, composer

October 20 2017
Auditorio General de la Universidad de Guanajuato
XLV Festival Internacional Cervantino

Composed within the program Prácticas de Vuelo organized by the CMMAS

About the work

Paralized, I stare into the void, deaf and blind to the events that are happening around my body. I am torn appart between two possible choices, constantly and chaotically switching from prefering one or the other. The anxiety produced by the urgency of choice is crushing. Like smoke, Gremory starts leaking from my mouth, my ears and my eyes. Above my head, she materializes into a bony ghost, dressed in silky robes. Sneering, she ofers me two options, one in each hand, but whenever I reach for either one, she withdraws it.
I am unable to choose, and that in itself is a choice, and the payment for taking it is done with time.
So I passively decide to live in a strange and distorted world, where the urgency and anxiety are always present, but very far away. Gremory is always by my side, but she never speaks. Her silent gaze sometimes reminds me that I am living a faux life, but then I only avert my eyes.
Finally I completelly forget about the choice. I am now in complete silence, the pressure is gone. But I can not easily recall who I am. But that is not important, as long as I am not bothered.
Then I hear something, a pulse from the past, similar to someone running. It is something that I recognize, but I can not remember exactly what it is. Suddenly I understand that it is the third choice, and I recall everything. The noise and anxiety from before eclipsed this idea, but it was always there. I am not obligated two choose between two undesirable alternatives. I can always run towards something else, even if it is not clear what it is now. Gremory returns to my body and I pursue a new life, unrelated to whatever I thought before.