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eyenine - arachnophobia
from the album "the insomnia sessions"

it's time to be honest, so let me crack this open
i'm a self-absorbed nihilist and i'm arachnophobic
my past is broken, littered with mistakes and sick regrets
it took me years to make an album, mostly from my lack of focus
so let me throw aside the curtains, and i'll show you why I'm hurting
things are crashing down and yes, I know no life is perfect
but where do I draw the line between making excuses
and realizing that my life has been so worthless minus making music
i try to take my useless shell out for some exercise
to find someone who can feel welcomed by this mess of mine
this stress in mind is what I find when I am writing lyrics
my appearance isn't phased even when I'm buying clearance
items, and i hide my fear inside the reaches of my weary
mind, it's what i use to keep myself from reaching silence
my eyelids are always being studied, as i sleep until i'm hungry
in this web i've made, i'm running out of money

trap door, bird eating, fear inducing spiders
i look into the mirror and i see the stunning likeness
i figured out my fear, the reflection made it clear
i'm an eight legged freak, there's no way that i can fight this
black widow, last little look across my web
i feel like a recluse when i crawl into my bed
and i think of all the times that i've killed the little spiders
'cause maybe this fear is all inside my head

the coursing venom in my teeth when i make a speech
over instrumental beats leaves you paralyzed for weeks
i'm trying to keep this urge contained to little doses
but its hard to write a song when i keep thinking that my life is hopeless
i try to open all the windows in my room to breathe
i'm used to seeing phases in my life when i can fluently
write, now i choose to sleep tight every afternoon
i'd like to make time to write but i don't have the room
my schedules full between working and doing shows
any free time i have left is not for music though
i do routine maintenance on my web so it doesn't break
id like to think my life isn't that far from great
i am a spider, now it might make sense
why i'm the last thing you want to see inside your bed
and why people try to stomp me out for what i've said
i thought it was 'cause I'm an asshole, guess I'm wrong again