DESCRIPTION:
Track 6 off Kaspa's debut album "Found My Way" which can be downloaded FREE at https://www.kaspahiphop.com OR
https://soundcloud.com/kaspahiphop OR
https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/found-my-way/id839410524

LYRICS

see I got demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares
I just come to accept that death is creeping as my time nears
been over 9 years since my suicidal thoughts
and I remember it like yesterday a breath away from lost
I got the call of course the moment he passed on
immediately the beast in me said "you know where you belong"
so take that bottle swallow every pill till they're all gone
oxycotins I had gotten chased with vodka in my palm
a comatosing mix quickly slips in thee abyss
this certainly can work for me and permanently fix
in and outta conciousness as it slowly takes effect
and smoke some weed indeed you need to speed this process up
after that it's only black on the hotel bed I sat
decision made and it's too late then i layed flat right on my back
went to sleep to meet that man last of drugs still in my hand
exposed the final dose that was suppose to do me in

I got demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide biddy bye bye)
demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide)
demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide biddy bye bye)
I got demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide)
I got demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide biddy bye bye)
demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide)
demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide biddy bye bye)
I got demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide)

(Diabolic verse)

I'm waking up in cold sweats screaming while I'm dreaming
angels on my shoulder scheming wit my inner demons
no one's intervening not Jesus or his prophets
so I'm smoking chronic drinking while my soul gets frozen solid
who's on the phone for Bolic another debt collector
IRS is at my door I'm under excessive pressure and I'm not alone (nope)
wit 2 kids I got at home the weight that's on my shoulders would snap ya collar bone
this for the pain that's been inflicted and since commited
being this vindictive and how the fuck I'm living with it
I've hit my limit drunk baby momma bitchin'
I'm trying to make an honest living ain't got a pot to piss in
tired of what I'm doing being met with opposition
politicing with a snake and I hate the contradiction
I'm fake to real the way I feel is not sufficient
shotgun suicide will solve the problems with em'

I got demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide biddy bye bye)
demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide)
demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide biddy bye bye)
I got demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide)
I got demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide biddy bye bye)
demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide)
demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide biddy bye bye)
I got demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide)

These thoughts had first occured before the loss before the hurt
the curiosity had got to me I'm probably disturbed
in my parents room I snuck nope they didn't lock it up
a complex little kid wit side effects of being quite a twisted fuck
I took the gun and loaded one if he'd only knew what I'd become
his oldest son would focus on oh how the downward spiral spun
thought I'd be fun put it to my flesh and let it explode
a sick-i-ness of interest to try and test my threshold
how far will you follow through I knew that you would pussy out
listen to yourself constantly something to bitch about
now open your mouth have a blast blow your mind right out the back
take the step and taste the lead yea I like the sounds of that
hard to believe that little Steve had been intrigued so young
within his head the voices of the dead and evil spirits sung
the demons in my dreams tell me that it's over for you kid
but the angels in my nightmares have the plans for me to live

I got demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide biddy bye bye)
demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide)
demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide biddy bye bye)
I got demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide)
I got demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide biddy bye bye)
demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide)
demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide biddy bye bye)
I got demons in my dreams and angels in my nightmares (suicide it's a suicide)