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Words, Music & Ukulele - Amanda Palmer
....and featuring the amazing Brian Viglione (of The Dresden Dolls) on Percussion

-VIDEO-
This video was made for practically no money, on practically no notice. It was shot by my friend, Jim Batt, on January 31st '11 in Newcastle, NSW, the morning after a TINY little show for a few dozen people at the Great Northern Hotel.

Read the whole blog about it at http://bit.ly/blog2111

Director & Editor: Jim Batt
jimbatt.com | @battsignal

-SONG-
Recorded, Mixed, and Mastered by Mick Wordley at Mixmasters Studios in Adelaide, AU - mixmasters.com.au
Additional recording by Martin Bisi in Brooklyn, NY.

LYRICS:

In my mind
In a future five years from now
I'm one hundred and twenty pounds
And I never get hung over
Because I will be the picture of discipline
Never minding what state I'm in
And I will be someone I admire
And it's funny how I imagined
That I would be that person now
But it does not seem to have happened
Maybe I've just forgotten how to see
That I am not exactly the person that I thought I'd be

And in my mind
In the faraway here and now
I've become in control somehow
And I never lose my wallet
Because I will be the picture of of discipline
Never fucking up anything
And I'll be a good defensive driver
And it's funny how I imagined
That I would be that person now
But it does not seem to have happened
Maybe I've just forgotten how to see
That I'll never be the person that I thought I'd be

And in my mind
When I'm old I am beautiful
Planting tulips and vegetables
Which I will mindfully watch over
Not like me now
I'm so busy with everything
That I don't look at anything
But I'm sure I'll look when I am older
And it's funny how I imagined
That I could be that person now
But that's not what I want
But that's what I wanted
And I'd be giving up somehow
How strange to see
That I don't wanna be the person that I want to be

And in my mind
I imagine so many things
Things that aren't really happening
And when they put me in the ground
I'll start pounding the lid
Saying I haven't finished yet
I still have a tattoo to get
That says I'm living in the moment
And it's funny how I imagined
That I could win this, win this fight
But maybe it isn't all that funny
That I've been fighting all my life
But maybe I have to think it's funny
If I wanna live before I die
And maybe it's funniest of all
To think I'll die before I actually see
That I am exactly the person that I want to be

Fuck yes
I am exactly the person that I want to be