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VECT
06. Hopeless
Isolated Incidents
©2005

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it's about 10 O clock thinkin' sittin' in the dark
of how many times my hopes ripped apart
pondering ideal thoughts something pleasant
got 2 bucks to my name livin' like a peasant
still thinkin' of my old unreached dreams
falling slow but deeper I can only scream
misunderstood by whoever I speak to
hope is something I no longer seek through
my dream is crushing but I keep bustin'
I beat myself in the head as I'm cussin'
when hope builds & flies all around
it falls from the sky dead on the ground
shattered hopes & dreams by the slicer
for every time I thought things would get nicer
worried thoughts run all through my head
I wanna keep it silent & cool but then I'd have to pretend

(chorus)
every time I hope
it brings me hurt
cuz every time I do it
it becomes cursed

everyone calls me negative cuz I have no faith
what's faith? I hoped like you said it never went your way
it's like firing a gun straight up to the sky
& watching the bullet land straight in my eye
I prepare for & expect the worst
nowadays that's the way I gotta be
cuz things are ugly been too much to see
my name ain't fiction its maniacal V
& this ain't a fairytale it's l-i-f-e
I don't need to have my heart set on something I need
I lost too much depending on hope
it broke me for years till I slashed it's throat
it's something that's a fantasy never to rely on
that's a cloud that I'm done trying to fly on
I make things happen if it's in my control
but if it's not I just let things roll

all the lies all the fallbacks & disappointment
gave me wounds & giving up is the best ointment
I don't go for a tease I let it come to me
cuz hope is a prayer for a want or a need
I don't look forward I just look as it comes
I just deal with it & stay real with it
faithless after all the stabs & let downs
think I'm bullshittin'? go ahead & place your bet down
for so long I've tried to make things happen
by the time I got close it was already crappin'
I'm not here trying to tell you to quit
but as for me hope's just a bitch
so I let things be & see what they show
never again will I believe in hope
no NEVER again will I believe in hope