DESCRIPTION:
Shoshana Bean performs "Home" at Scott Alan's CD Release event for 'Dreaming Wide Awake' on January 7, 2008. CD available on CDbaby.com/scottalan and iTunes.

BACKSTORY: Well, Shoshana gives the backstory on how we met, and how this song came to be, so I am going to take another direction with this one.

The first time Shoshana and I ever performed this song together was at a Benefit Event called 'The Kitchen Sink.' Shoshana's last day at Hairspray was that day. It was on a Sunday. She was already very emotional. I was very emotional, too. I didn't know ANYONE. To my left was Stephanie J. Block and Julia Murney (neither one I had worked with yet) and to my right was the adorable David Burtka and Anythony Rapp. Shoshana was running late, so I was waiting downstairs in the greenroom, by myself, twiddling my thumbs. Finally Shoshana showed up, but we were told to go upstairs and wait on the side for our performance.

Everyone sang two songs. Shoshana sang The Cornet Man from Funny Girl, first. Then she called me up on stage to perform 'Home.' I was SHAKING so badly. The song went beautifully and when we were done, we went to sit back down with everyone. David Burtka was crying and touched my leg when he told me he loved the song and I thought, 'wow, this is a nice moment.' (not the touching of the leg, though, that was nice, too. Just the feeling of being 'special' and a part of something in the theatre community).

Ok, so, that's still not the story. I am on a high. I think I am something really special. I walk to the subway thinking in my head 'yup, I am a star. Better believe it. Don't mess with me' when I hear these girls in front of me talking about the concert. I start walking faster to hear what they had to say, when one of them goes 'I know, right ? Shoshana Bean is so amazing, but what was that horrible song she sang at the end ? 'Home' ? Just really really bad, the worst song of the night' and her two other friends agree'd .... I felt like I was back in highschool. My ego balloon, popped by a thirteen year olds opinion.

Ya, I realized at THAT moment, you either can handle the criticism and keep on going, or you can let it hold you down. I took a few seconds, thought about it and it was at that moment I decided ...

Lets keep on going.