Just in case you wanted to know anything about me here’s just a little. I have finally come to a place where I don’t need anyone’s opinion, advice, or guidance concerning the things God has in store for me. I’m done looking to mere men for approval of my gifts and worship to God. I’m done questioning whether I’m worthy and capable of achieving all that God has destined for me. Simply put. I am not worthy (and never will be). God however, living within me is fully capable of achieving more than I alone could ever do or imagine. For me to think that He wants to do any of those things through me is almost unbelievable. I have let so many years pass, while following man’s recipe for success. I’ve been told my music "needed work", additional writers, additional production, more uptempo tracks, etc. Question: Does anyone stand at the alter with their hands raised and lean over to the person next to them and say, "How is my posture right now? Do you think I should shout Hallelujah now or after the organist is finished with his riff? Does my praise sound industry ready?" The truth of the matter is that while my focus was on whether God was pleased with my riffs, writing, and production, God was pleased with my heart and anointed my music. Funny thing though. When I got industry professionals in my ear, the latest recording software, and a few record labels and magazines checking for me, the music turned into something else. It was no longer worship, it was business. I became so engulfed with the art of music and production and mixing and engineering and and and. that there was no more room for God. I began downloading all the latest music software from illegal sites and incorporating that into my "worship". I can only imagine the stench from the music or "worship" that must have reached heaven. Since when is God so hi-tech that He won’t bless or anoint my music unless it’s red book standard (radio ready)? Anyway, I’m rambling. You want to know something about me? I have a mind similar to King David when he went to fight Goliath. King Saul insisted that David wear the royal armor as he went out to battle. After trying it on David realized he could barely move in it, it was very uncomfortable, stiff and awkward. David decided he would fight the "giant" with the basic, meager, lowly means he was acustomed to; a rock and a slingshot. The giant was defeated because David trusted God with what was given him from God. He didn’t need the king’s approval, tools, or recipe for victory. I have decided that I will accomplish all that God has destined for me, not with the big, bulky and awkward tools and standards of the rulers today, but with my Rock, slingshot and trust in the Most High God I will defeat this Philistine. You don’t hear me though! Rock and a slingshot baby!
