DESCRIPTION:
from: Somebody's Miracle
Capitol Records, 2005


I'm walking down in the basement
I'm leaning on the washing machine
I'm reaching back through a hole
In the wall's insulation

I'm pulling out a bottle of vodka
Replacing that with a pint of Jim Beam
I'm lying down on the floor
Until I feel better

It's morning and I pour myself coffee
I drink it till the kitchen stops shaking
I'm backing out of the driveway
And into creation

And the loving spirit that follows me
Watching helplessly, will always forgive me

Oh, I want to die alone with my sympathy beside me
I want to bring down all those demons who drank with me
Feasting gleefully
On my desperation

I hide all the bottles in places
They find, and confront me
With pain in their eyes,
And I promise that I'll make some changes

But reaching back it occurs to me
There will always be some kind of crisis for me

Oh, I want to die alone with my sympathy beside me
I want to bring back all those moments they stole from me
In my reverie,
Darkening days end

Oh, I want to die alone with my memories inside me
I want to live that life when I could say people had faith in me
I still see that guy
In my memory

Oh, I want to die alone with my sympathy beside me
I want to bring down all those people who drank with me
Watching happily
My humiliation