Aphelion

"If by noise you mean uncomfortable sound, then pop music is noise to me."
~ Masami Akita (Merzbow)



A P H E L I {0} N is the sound of uncontroled emotions.
This sound is the bi-product of living a life being unable to let go of the things that haunt me, things make even the simplest of daily chores difficult. This is what I find at the bottom of every bottle. This is the result of being unhappy with everything around me, of finding the finding the lowest common denominator in everything life has to offer. This is my expressed, projected disappointment with all things and all people, especially myself. This is proof that I am, and always will be the lowest bidder. This is what it’s like to wake up each and every morning fearful of what horrors lay in wait, around each corner, behind every conversation, every casual glance, the meaning, the subtext. This is the soundtrack to my regret, failures and inability to conform to the standards the society holds in such high regard. This is truth, absolute and pure, weighing down on those that bathe in the glory of selfish optimism. This is my wretched desires, lusts and depravity. This is my apathy towards god and a hatred of organized religion, a promise of certainty to the sheep. Aphelion was born of heartache and a disparity that has probably been there my whole life, but it took people, ruined, selfish, cruel and shallow to fully expose it.
aphelion
Pronunciation: a-'fEl-y&n
Function: noun
Inflected Form(s): plural aphelia /-y&/
Etymology: New Latin, from apo- + Greek hElios sun -- more at SOLAR
: the point in the path of a celestial body (as a planet) that is farthest from the sun --